Ever since I got back from my trip back east, and returned to FUNemployment, I've been struggling. I really thought that I'd slide back into fun time but it's been harder than I expected. I couldn't put my finger on it, until I watched The Blind Side and saw the USA/Ghana World Cup game. One is a story of hope, the other of disappointment.
In The Blind Side, Michael Oher had the worst childhood imaginable. This kid was lucky if he found food. But in a twist of fate, he met a family that helped him and after a lot of hard work, he went to college and is now in the NFL. If you looked at Michael Oher prior to meeting the Tuohys, you would've hoped that he lived past his 18th birthday. But he beat every odd and became a success.
I met friends to watch the USA/Ghana game and admittedly, I know nothing about soccer. What I quickly learned is that the US exhibited the can-do American attitude. They were constantly working hard, taking shots on goal. If they'd fall down, they'd get back up. I thought for sure that they'd prevail because they were dominating. With that many shots on goal, how could they not win? Well, they can be proud of their hard work but it didn't get them to the next level. They failed.
As I'm trying to navigate launching my dog walking business and finishing up my book proposal to send to publishers, I'm worried about whether I'll be a success or a failure. And this fear has paralyzed me. I'm venturing into 2 new territories and I have no idea what I'm doing. I haven't even done anything with dog walking. In this new territory, I have no idea whether I'll be Oher or Donovan and I'm scared.
Luckily, today's NY Post horoscope is once again in tune with me. And it's right, I need to suck it up and get moving:
Don't sit around thinking about what might have been -- get out into the world and do something special. The next few days are going to be crucial to your emotional and mental well-being. Do whatever it takes to be a success.
Well, NY Post, I will do my best. Keep your fingers crossed for me!